The Laughing Fox

Live in a world of suspended amazement...

Hey there!

I am SO sorry I haven't written. Not that more than two of you, ie, not that anyone but Leigh and Steph, read this. Ah well, they haven't been around much either it seems.

I'm going to California tomorrow morning, so I'll be on during the evenings... MAYBE. Don't count on me being around for the next two weeks. I'll be in Cali from the 18th to the 26th. If anyone in the US (well, if Mike) needs to call me, you're welcome to. If not, email me. ;)

Took the GRE yesterday. Ugggh didn't do very good. I'm really really unhappy about that. But I should have official scores after I get home from vacay.

(I want some more orange juice. bleh.)

I'm currently packing up and watching Star Wars Ep 3. I watched all the old trilogy over the last few days.

And I'm getting a headache. Cheerio!

Too too true.

The following hits a litttttle too close to home for me. And as many of you have heard from me, its waaay too true. Miami hates anything that has to do with the military. Idiots. Read on, and you'll see what life holds in store for me. :-P


news.enquirer.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?
AID=/20070607/COL05/706070314/1009/col05




Cincinnati Enquirer

Last Updated: 1:30 pm Thursday, June 7, 2007
Help wanted at Miami - only liberals need apply


Mark Moyar looks like the perfect fit to teach history at Miami University: first in the history department and summa cum laude at Harvard; Ph.D. at Cambridge; speaks French and German; two successful books and a third on the way ...

But wait a minute - what's this on his resume about teaching at the Marine Corps University and the George Bush School of Government and Public Service? And whoa, don't choke on your green tea, but look at the title of his book: "Triumph Forsaken: The Vietnam War, 1954-1965."
Triumph? Vietnam? In the same sentence?

If the faculty search committee at Miami were not too liberal for a "three-strikes" policy, Moyar's conservative history of Vietnam had to be strike three, he believes. He had better academic credentials and recommendations from the best historians, but he was not even granted an interview during the search last year, Moyar said.

"Your qualifications are fine," he was told. But Miami's history department had "its own priorities, its own gaps, its own desires."

Yet among the dozen candidates the faculty chose to interview were two who did not have doctorates, one whose dissertation was on "Race, Identity and Gender in the Panama Canal Zone," and another whose scholarship focused on "American Radio in East Asia."

Moyar wrote to the president of Miami: "Only a person divorced from reality would argue that the history of gender in the Panama Canal Zone or the history of American radio in pre-World War II East Asia are more germane to U.S. foreign policy than my wide-ranging work on the Vietnam War."

Maybe his work on Vietnam was a bit too wide-ranging.

"The only explanation I can find for the search committee's extraordinary decision is that the conclusions of my research are inconsistent with the ideological views of members of the search committee," Moyar wrote.

President James Garland backed the history department. When Garland retired, new President David Hodge told Moyar that Miami promotes "diversity of ideas on campus," but said the faculty had properly picked four candidates to hire, but none accepted. The search was closed. So was the investigation of Moyar's complaint.

It was nothing new to Moyar. He's been rejected by scores of universities, despite his strong credentials. "In this case it was particularly blatant because they ended up not hiring anybody," he said. "They come up with these crazy excuses" for what he calls "flagrant discrimination against conservatives in faculty hiring."

Moyar's research found that among Miami history faculty who declared party affiliation, Democrats outnumbered Republicans 15 to one. My own check of Butler County voter registration shows 13 Democrats and three Republicans in the history department.

"The pool consisted of a good number of well-qualified applicants," said Allen Winkler, who was chairman of the search committee. "In the case of Dr. Moyer, the committee felt that he was more a military historian than a diplomatic historian, the same judgment it made with regard to a number of other outstanding candidates, and it chose to interview the people it felt matched the advertised description of the position best. I cannot comment further, since this is a university personnel matter."

So faculty members decide who teach at public universities - without any accountability or scrutiny?

Miami is a beautiful campus with a reputation for a liberal faculty that annoys moderate and conservative students. The search may have been completely fair and unbiased. But Winkler's recent public radio attack on President Bush doesn't sound that way. He called Iraq "a costly and corrosive war that he (Bush) single-handedly began," and a "quagmire" like "the ill-fated and ill-conceived war in Vietnam."

Moyar's book, called "one of the most important books ever written on the Vietnam War," by Macubin Thomas Owens, professor of national security at the Naval War College, napalms the "quagmire" dogma and shows that even the North Vietnamese thought we were winning.
If Moyar is right, most history professors at most campuses are wrong. Not just about Vietnam - but also wrong about Iraq and other bricks in the ivy-covered walls of liberal conformity.
Maybe that's why they're still fighting the Vietnam War on campus - and conservatives are still not allowed to win.

Thanks!

To Leigh: THANK YOU for spending your entire day you know, calming me down, stopping me from freaking out, listening, being there.... YOU ROCK. And I'm so happy to have you as a friend.

If you weren't listed -- be happy you weren't around when things really weren't going well. :)

Go for it.

Laugh at me. Make fun of me. Mock me. I don't give a damn.

I don't have many friends. I don't want them. You know why?

All they do is cause pain deeper than anything a stranger can do.

The more they know you, the deeper they know you, the closer they are to you, the more they're going to rip out your heart and cut it into pieces.

Now I remember why it takes me years to trust someone. Because then... then I assume they're not going to tear me to pieces. How ever wrong could I be. Those closest to you are the most likely to betray you. Kill you piece by piece.

Why did I ever learn to trust? WHY do people insist trying to teach that 'virtue'. It's meant to be broken.

One of the two people I trusted with my heart made broke it. So go on, laugh or mock me.

By time I read the comments or hear the words, my heart will be harder than stone.

It's safer that way.

Never did I think I'd feel what it meant to be 'broken hearted' because I never intended to let some guy break my heart -- I never intended to date anyone that I didn't think I could potentially continue to deal with and live with in ten, twenty years. Instead, I managed to have it torn in pieces by a friend I once knew, I thought decently well.

Damn it.





Damn it.

So go on, mock me. Mock the fact I'm a cold-hearted jerk. Mock the fact that I am friends with only a few.

Go for it.



But when I'm famous, and have these awesome fantasy books out on the best-sellers lists, when I'm teaching at that perfect school, when I'm famous and on TV, remember this:

I'm there and you aren't. Because that's all I can look after, really. Me, myself, and I. Because chances are, you'll ditch me too.

Just like everyone else.





Damn it all to hell.


Why? WHY?





Damn it all.

Yarr!

Pirates3 came out yesterdayyyy! I got to go with Nick, Beth, Daniel, and Loren. Tonight we had dinner and watched Pirates1. Yarr! Soo many references we caught in this one that were in the third. Click the pirate picture below to read more about it.





The PIRATE QUEEN



We had a lot of fun. Tonight we had brats and chili dogs for dinner, talked for a couple hours, then watched Pirates1 till 11:15pm. Loren and Daniel promised to help me with some projects I'm working on as well, for which I am very excited. (You know, these pirates pictures of me make me look fat.... -grimaces- Stupid poofy shirt. I KNEW I should have straightened it before I got my picture taken!)


I got lots of really fun comments at the theatres last night, as well as some amusing looks when I was driving to get to the theatre. No one even questioned that I had a sword on... then again, we passed a few people that could have easily passed as prostitutes and much more dangerous looking pirates than me....


Have I ever mentioned how much I LOVE hanging out with my friends?


Anyways. From here on out will be pictures that have been taken since school let out for summer... since they only got uploaded this afternoon. I'm still missing pictures from Brad's wedding, but when I upload those, those will be online too. Savvy? ;) Have a great night! (BTW, I hate the photo service here. I don't think I'll use blogger photo albums again...)


Me being ... me ... at Brad's wedding. Picture courtesy of Beth and my camera.

Butterflies! Me and my newest pet... for the five minutes he graced me with his presence that is.

Noah with his butterfly.

Really awesome butterfly.

Logan (left) and Noah (right) at the Butterfly show at the Krohn Conservatory.


Logan hiding in the conservatory. Most of you would love his shirt. It reads: "I'm not dead yet!" You guess the play.


Olivia. She's soo cool. We were filming a lacrosse game her dad was coaching. (Her old team.)

>.<

THERE IS NO MIDNIGHT SHOWING!

I'm faaaaaamous!

http://usspirates.blogspot.com

That should explain it. AHHH! Sooo happy.

I've been gone a lot since I got out of school - I apologize. I have been at 7 doctors in 11 working days. I have volunteered at the high school every wednesday. I have been at Kaplan courses every Mon/Wed night. I have vision therapy every Wed. Afternoon. I am ATTEMPTING to clean my room. I'm still exhausted / fatigued (hence all the doctors), so I sleep a lot. I have been mowing the lawn, and running up to Miami to acquire books of all sorts. I'm trying to do my Kaplan homework. I'm doing my research. And I'm trying desperately to talk to someone who said she'd talk to me two weeks ago and still refuses to answer IMs. >.< Now that one's frustrating.

Got a shot today. That was less than fun. But, I'll be healthier for it in the long run! Stuff like that I'm willing to deal with the pain for. With the world we live in today... yeeeah. I'll take the vaccine. I have two more doses to take - one in July, then one 6 mos from then.

I went to a butterfly show on Thursday. Did you know 23, 24 year old men act like 3 year olds when they're around butterflies and left to their own devices? Seriously! I felt like I was babysitting them both! But it was tons of fun -- I can babysit those types of kids. ;)

I'll put up pictures here soon -- I need to upload them all first. Two nights ago I went outside to take pictures of the moon and Venus (riiight next to each other - it was beautiful!) I had my regular camera, so it wasn't digital and had a telescopic lense. I then went to the corner of the street to take pictures -- and scared the neighbors. Not sure if they thought I was a cat burglar or what... but he came out and we chatted for a while. You know how scary I look with my camera! Yarr! Fear me! I should have good pictures though, once I get them developed.

So the latest doctor thought I was just seriously depressed. Am I? I'm only 'depressed' about one thing, and I can't fix that until the reason decides to talk with me. And I can figure stuff out. But besides being incredibly depressed about missing my friend that I angered last semester and she won't let me try to fix it.... I didn't think I was THAT depressed. I didn't really like that doctor anyways.

Okay, off to respond to the newspaper people, and then off to another annoying, irritating, infuriating class at Kaplan. Tata!


OHOHOH. Just came in. MIDNIGHT SHOWING FOR PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN WITH BETH AND NICK! And possibly Ben S. too!

Ahh!

I'll have a post soon! I swear! That has real information on it!

I GOTTA BE HOME FIRST!

Not the easiest thing to do it seems.

I GOT A 4.0!

I GOT A 4.0!!!!!!!!

Can you believe it!? I GOT A 4.0!!!!!!!! Moved my GPA up to a 3.4, which still isn't good enough - but so much better! 4.0! I've not had that since High School!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I moved out of school last week - but haven't really been home. Friday - spent time with friends then went to a lecture by Matthew Stover. Was spectacular.

Saturday - GalaxyCon and Cincy Public Library. Research and Star Wars -- what a mix! Was tons of fun. Also bought about 13 books there. Sweetness.

Sunday - Wedding for Brad and Aileen. It was wonderful to see my friends again.

Monday - Doctor and voting and errands.

Tuesday - Eye doctor and errands, and trying to figure out how to get to Kaplan so I don't get lost next week.

Wednesday - up at 6 to go to the HS with mum and stayed around till 2, then came home and cleaned.

Today - Up to go to the orthodontist then had lunch, and now cleaning my room AND REALIZING I GOT A 4.0! (Amazing what only 15 hours will do for someone.)

Tomorrow - Up at 8:30 to call the doctor for test results and see where I need to go next, then go to Indy with mom, hang out there till dad's out of meetings, then go with dad to the booksale and ride back with him. I love booksales. It's been quite too long.

Saturday - go to Louisville for an early Mother's Day. Come back that night.

Sunday - Freedom? Maybe? Freedom = cleaning rooms.



I think I may be able to see again soon. That is super exciting, since this has been plaguing me for the last two years. I've repeated this several times already, so I'll basically copy paste what I've told people.

I already have 'accomodative insufficiency', which means that I have issues focusing from near to far and so forth - basically my eyes over-focus. I also, we found out, have this thing called 'esophoria', meaning that even though my eyes are perfectly aligned when I look at something, I see it cross-eyed, so I see double vision. Which is why, no matter how good of a prescription I have, it doesn't fix the problem, and words still look blurry. My eyes are young enough, apparently, that they're working overtime to compensate for this double vision, so I just have a major headache and see blurry instead of double, and it exhausts me cuz they're trying their damndest to make me see one image, but only succeed in making it blurry. So we're putting prisms in my glasses to refocus my eyes so they can comprehend what they see, where they want to see it.

I'm so excited! I might actually see like a normal person again!!! I need better vision before I do all this research - last year almost killed me because it hurts sooo much to read and see.

I GOT A 4.0!

Okay, that's all. Cleaning and working on research. Tons of fun!


PS. I have been extremely clumsy and full of weird luck today. Don't be suprised if I manage to hurt myself more before bedtime.

I can't make some of this stuff up.

I get a random note saying 'yeah I sold the kayak, want to go out with my best friend instead', a good friend started speaking to me again, I went on a midnight walk with a friend, burned myself MICROWAVING dinner, twisted my ankle walking down the hall after my final, and cracked my head loud enough someone outside could hear the 'thunk' when I woke up.

I'm afraid to move out now...

Could this week get any weirder? What a silly silly week.


PS. FINALS ARE OVERRRRR!