The Laughing Fox

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Showing posts with label classes. Show all posts
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Arg!!

Alright, I'm sorry I'm not online.

Here may be a few reasons why you may not see me on any IMs:
  1. Miami's internet sucks; therefore, when I'm in my room, it flickers in and out and doesn't really exist. They just want us to think it does.
  2. Cleaning my disaster of a room.
  3. No internet.
  4. Playing hockey.
  5. No internet.
  6. Hanging out with people.
  7. No internet.
  8. Creating my way cool story. That doesn't exist yet.
  9. No internet.
  10. Graduate school apps. When I have internet. Which leads to our last, and most definate, reason for not being on, #11:
  11. NO INTERNET.

You have reached me at sassyphoenix.blogspot.com. Thank you for listening and holding. Please leave your name, number, and a brief message, and internet willing, I will return your comments. Or, for some of you, just call my cell phone. ;)

PS. I have more to talk about. I just don't feel like doing it now. Like about some of my awesome classes. Like ice hockey. With which I now have a stick and equipment, except for a helmet. That story may come later. Cheers!

*snarl*

So, I made the comment resembling the fact that it's depressing that I'll have to work the rest of my life. This was after I was asked if I was ready to return to school, and I said no, cuz it would involve work. Then I said something along the lines of 'meh, I'll just marry a millionaire and be lazy.' The response: "You can't even get a date, let alone get married." Thank you, mom, for that comment. That was so uplifting and reassuring. I mean seriously, like I didn't know that. Ever thought that I despise all the jerks that do ask me to do something in said context? I happen to have high standards. And who said I couldn't get a date? Maybe I haven't wanted any. Besides, all the people I'm interested in have been taken thus far. So I found that to be a very unfair comment on her part, and I'm pissed. Really, really pissed. I figure it was an offhand remark on her account, but that cut deep and really pissed me off. Which is why I'm griping on here. Because I am so pissed.

Other news. Bloody next semester. Here's the schedule:

Monday:

1-2pm: Ice Hockey
6-7:15pm: Political Science

Tuesday:

10-11: AF 112
11-12:15: AF 332
12:30-1:45: History w/ Cayton

Wednesday:

1-2pm: Ice Hockey
6-7:15pm: Political Science

Thursday:

10-11: AF 222
11-12:15: AF 332
12:30-1:45: History w/ Cayton

Friday:

NO CLASS



We ran by Miami the other day to drop stuff off and get books, and I started talking to Cayton. Until then, I'd been considering dropping his class (I signed up for 18 hours, I'm taking 13) and taking another. Then, the kicker: "Well Allison, see you next Tuesday. If you're not asleep in class again." *grumble grumble grumble* I really need to take his class. Because he's a very very powerful man. And he knows I'm supposed to take his class. And, well, I guess I will be.

I've also been rather sick and feeling like crap the last several days. I think I'm sick.

And right now I have a headache. Probably because I'm so mad. So cheerio, and adieu.

I can't make some of this stuff up.

I get a random note saying 'yeah I sold the kayak, want to go out with my best friend instead', a good friend started speaking to me again, I went on a midnight walk with a friend, burned myself MICROWAVING dinner, twisted my ankle walking down the hall after my final, and cracked my head loud enough someone outside could hear the 'thunk' when I woke up.

I'm afraid to move out now...

Could this week get any weirder? What a silly silly week.


PS. FINALS ARE OVERRRRR!

Ah rain....

It's been raining all day. Been nice.

I don't have my history class tomorrow, which is cool. Went to WPAFB yesterday, and it was pretty cool. Got to see the base housing, which was interesting. And the officer's club had some really good food.

Also got a shirt. It amused me.



My capstone paper is almost done. Just getting the finishing touches put on it. Hoping to send it out to Col. Stohry later this evening.

Got to shoot tonight, was quite a bit of fun. Not many people came, due to the fact it was storming.

Mom currently has no power.

Really missing roleplaying. So many thoughts and ideas and banners and photoshop. >.< Perhaps I'll work on writing stories. I'm getting frustrated with having no outlets, soo yeah. Jordan and I started a fun story... hmm...

That's that.

Avast!

Kinda in a piratey mood. Always fun.

My last presentation was done today. Yay! Now, to work on my capstone and the like for next week.

Tomorrow get to go to the health center at 9 to get blood work results (haha, maybe). Then two classes. Trying to decide if I want to go home or not. It'd be nice to have hot water in my shower...

It snowed today. Vaugely. But definately snowflakes.

Wright-Patterson on Tuesday. Get to get up at 4:45 to leave at 5:20am. Gone for the day! Booyah.

My head hurts.

I get to go to dinner with Molly and Amber here in a few minutes.

Toodles!

Behold! The Health Clinic at Lunch!

Very quiet in the health center during lunch hours. Been here since 11:30, waiting another hour before I get MORE blood drawn. Doing glucose testing (again) so I've been fasting since last night and tested every half hour while here. I'm ready for some food... and sleep. Sleep is also good. Also did scheduling this morning. Got some nice classes I think.

Classes next semester:

Aerospace Studies 221 - The Development Of Air Power - Thursday 10-11a

Aerospace Studies 331 - Aerospace Leadership & Management - Tuesday/Thursday 11a-12:15p

Classics 210E - Attics of Antiquity (ie, Rome, Troy, etc) - Tuesday/Thursday 3:30-4:45p

History 302 - War and European Cinema - Monday/Wednesday 11-12, Monday 7-9:40pm

History 400I - History Senior Capstone: Ancient History - Wednesday 7-9:40pm

Phys Ed 110E - Social Dance (ballroom and mixers) - Monday/Wednesday 9-10a

Phys Ed 150F - Intermediate Horseback - Tuesday 8-9:40a



Might drop a class still, not sure.

And I'm tired of the health center. Just so you know.

Quick Points

- Working with four 'men' (I'm not sure they warrant the word, personally, but they're all over 18) really sucks when they're slackers and idiots. Especially when they don't let you in on their meetings but expect you to pull your share of the work. Let's hope they don't cancel THIS meeting on me as well, so I can at least figure out where I fit into the stupid prsentation.

- The new POTC trailer clip is SWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET!

- Read above.

- Nice and breezy out today.

- Went to walmart, had to circle Miami several times before I found a parking spot. Stole it from someone who had just passed it up. I feel no guilt, esp. since all they did was drop a few people off. Any guilt felt was then gone.

- Got several fruits and veggies to snack on, so maybe I can stay healthy.

- Trying to figure out just WHAT I want to take next semester. It's never been so hard! Either Social Dance and Skating (eeeeeeeasy) or AF classes (guaranteed As). -whine- Too many choices. All at the same time. -pout-

- Need to write a 8-10 pg paper due tomorrow.

- Need to finish Kent State presentation for Tuesday.

- Ta!

So...

My last post was less than informative, I know.

I've been incredibly depressed lately. I'd say I don't know why, but I do. I'm stressed and I'm depressed. What a mix, eh? And before you can ask if you can help, no, you can't. So don't ask. And I don't really want to talk about it. I need to talk with mom and dad I think, but no one else can really do much, nor am I too willing to discuss much of it. Steph can probably drag some information out of me, if she's lucky, but she's probably the only one around anymore who can do that and get it. No offense to everyone else, just she was an awesome roomie and still an awesome friend and she's just that good. But if I've seemed a little out of it, it's not you. I'm just really fighting a lot of inner depression right now and considering seeing a counselor. Again. Didn't we go through this last year? Just different reasons.

Other news. I'm still really sad and hurt that Nic doesn't respond to me. (I think I can vent here, since everyone who reads this (like, all four of you) has heard my whining about her not responding, and I don't think she reads this anymore anyways. She's blocked me everywhere else it seems... or ignores me... one or the other...) Sent yet another email to her asking for SOME response. So, first letter, no response for almost two months. A couple IMs don't seem to go through. Second letter, no response. Phone, off or I'm blocked. Not sure which. But why leave a message if she doesn't even respond to emails? Probably not helping my depression at all, because I miss talking to her, laughing with her, roleplaying with her, griping about tests with her. Hell, she was my friend. I'd like to think she still is, but she's made it quite clear that, even if I'd like to think that, I'm *definitely* not in her life anymore. She's made sure of that. So I'm not sure which hurts more, her apparently not wanting to be friends anymore, after years of being so, or her completely ignoring me and blocking me from everything. I really don't think this is helping my depression either. At all. There went the only other person besides Steph who actually *understood* and didn't just listen. I just wish she'd get over her pride and tell me SOMETHING, even if it's just 'you suck'. I don't know why, when she always wanted to talk things out, why she won't talk this out. I just don't get it. I know most of you said its not worth your time stressing over, but I do. I always have.


Happier news. Think I got to get a picture of the raccoon this evening. Spent about two hours in the nature preserve tonight. Very good for the soul. Watched the ROTC marines do... whatever ROTC marines do. Not too sure. But they were doing it well. Tonight's animal tally: 1 raccoon, 4 deer, 12 vultures, 1 woodpecker, and 8 idiotic students going down the creek in rafts. This is probably a huge reason as to why the beavers didn't come out tonight.

Next weeks items: Monday - Paper due, project/presentation over Perelieu due. Tuesday - Project/presentation over Kent State Massacre due. Wednesday - .... nothing yet..... Thursday - Project/presentation over War of Mexican Independence due. Friday - .... home? Not sure yet. But it's Friday. Nuff said.


Alright, well I'm going to clean my room, maybe that will cut down some of the stress and depression. Put in a movie as I work. Lots and lots to do, and no energy to do it! IM me or call me to talk, I'll be around. Sooner or later. :)

A very brief update

Finally over the flu. Somewhat. Still tired all the time, and achy. Was in the ER, am now out of the ER. Obviously. Unable to go to any classes two weeks ago due to the stupid flu. Spent my entire spring break trying to get over the flu. Still not really over, but at least no longer infected. Just trying to recooperate from throwing up several times a day, coughing about four times every three minutes (yes, someone made a point to count), having a fever and being unable to sit up. Slept most of break. Now trying to frantically finish a paper due tomorrow (rough draft, thankfully), figure out graduation (Graduate early? Study abroad second semester? What to do with only needing 11 hours to graduate after summer?), figure out scheduling, figure out what session of the GRE classes I want to take, figure out HOW TO SUCCEED on the stupid GRE, vacation to CA, finish my capstone, get started and finish my four other papers, and so forth. Vaugely busy. And still, yes, sick and anemic. Cuz after being sick for two weeks and being unable to really eat during that time (and keep it in if i did eat), needless to say my I couldn't take iron and ZOOF there went what little control I had over my anemia, which is back in the bowels of despair. And I'm absolutely exhausted, anemic, and sick. Go me!

Okay that's my update.

PS. Leigh you suck, making me get an LJ. :-P I'll get to it later.

PPS. MSN hates me. Currently isn't working. Catch me on AIM - even if I have an away message up.

Title-less

People are still incredibly infuriating. I can't believe this people. Seriously. I must have a love of being walked all over the way things are going. I don't know why I even try anymore.



Other news.

Been up till about four each morning this week, working on proposals, abstracts, presentations, 'quizzes', papers, and handouts. Frustrated, very frustrated. I have a second chance to send in a proposal to the USNA History Symposium, due by noon tomorrow. I'm excited. I highly doubt it'll lead anywhere, but I sure as hell hope it does. The proposal for this symposium is the same as what I'm doing for my aerospace studies capstone. I sure hope this works.... Should also know by the end of the month if I'm in the summer scholars program this summer or not.... -prays to anything that's out there- I'd say you'd all be the first to know, but yeah, seeing as how most of you either aren't talking to me or manage to catch me when I'm stressed to the max, you probably won't know for a while, until I get around to posting. Unless your online and speaking to me. Then I'll probably remember to tell you. Yeah I'm a bit bitter right now. Two hours of sleep a day and only two people taking time to listen to me and take stress into consideration does that to a girl. Thanks boys, I needed to yell. Thanks for listening. You know who you are.


(Capstone Proposal)

Proposal Title: Life of Confederate Marines During the American Civil War
Proposed by: (me)

Miami University

I propose to write a scholarly essay over what life was like for a Confederate Marine during the American Civil War. I will explore all aspects of how the Confederate Marines lived and what they achieved during the Civil War. I will use journals from Confederate Marines as well as primary documentation about Marines of the time which are not written by Marines themselves.


Abstract:

Life was different for Confederate States Marine Corps (CSMC) than for their Union counterparts. Unlike their Union counterparts, who had been established since 1798, the CSMC was not established until March 16, 1861, and there were never more than 539 registered CSMC Marines, whereas the United States Marine Corps (USMC) had thousands of men at their disposal throughout the war, having retained many of the Corps that existed before the war. Confederate Marines made less money with longer required enlistment than did any other branch of the military. They often got the last of the goods given to the different branches of the military, and had to overcome obstacles that larger branches did not have to worry about. However, even lacking benefits given to other, larger branches of the Confederate military, the CSMC acquired a reputation for being amazing combatants and excellent at making ends meet. Their uniforms and equipment were different than that of the USMC, trading out the US uniforms and equipment for a more British style and appearance. The USMC first got to prove themselves during the battle of the CSS Virginia against the USS Monitor, and were called to perform many special operations afterwards and throughout the war. Although many records were destroyed after the war, the CSMC continued to retain its reputation as one of the best of the time, even after they were disbanded.

Woah long time!

Hey y'all, been a while. Been busy with classes and the like. Been getting a lot of grief from professors and faculty about wanting to go to grad school, which is making me dig my heels in deeper. Blah. And I need to pay lacrosse peoples. Grr. Been rather depressed and frustrated lately, with different people and things going on in my life. Some of you know what I'm talking about (well, probably just Mike), others of you really... don't. Maybe cuz Mike's the only one who's taken time to talk with me lately. Thank the stars for our Tues/Thurs lunches. They're keeping me sane.

Below, if anyone's interested, is a rant I just had on my message board for ethics class. Feel free to respond with your own opionions or discussions - just no attacks please. Either on my views or on others. Play nice peoples.

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So I believe the question for this forum is about whether or not we feel there is or is not a higher moral standard for military personnel, and perhaps whether or not there should be. If I'm completely mistaken and heard that wrong... oh well, it's an interesting topic anyways.


I believe that whether for good or for bad, the American population has the belief that their soldiers should have a higher moral standard than the rest of the Americans. It has come from diplomacy issues and international affairs, and how we are portrayed abroad and with our neighboring nations. The public has come to believe that the people overseas in, for example, Iraq, are the face of Americans nationwide and therefore must put their best foot forward and look and act better than 'typical' Americans. We have come to see soldiers as 'bad' people for making human mistakes. Yes, there are several instances lately where the 'bad' people were most definitely bad people. But other times, there have been simply human mistakes which have been made and the media made a big deal over it due to the fact that soldiers are such visible players in this huge chess game. There the ones that are the most visible and most directly in the media spotlight. From there, the media makes a big fuss if someone is simply human and isn't immortally perfect. No one's perfect. (Sorry guys. I hate to dash some of your hopes.)

Personally I believe that although military personnel have more rules and regulations to follow, and I think for good reason, to demand that they have a higher 'moral' standard is nonsense. You can follow rules without being moral, you can be moral and not follow rules. The good people will be good people with or without the military telling them to be perfect. The unmoral people can follow orders while still not being moral people. As hard as the military can sometimes try, it can't change everything a person learned for the first 18-20 years of their life from friends and family. True people can change, but the majority of people won't change that much, overall.

I think that the course of time has made it difficult for us to understand the foundations our military was based off of: a militia. Simple, every day people. Farmers, carpenters, coopers, lawyers, rebels. Common folk. People could just pick up arms, work together, and fight. There was none of this huge 'higher moral for the military people' because the 'military people' were your next door neighbors who had jobs other than fighting, unless you count the drunks at the pubs.... But our military was based off of common people fighting for a common ideal. Our military now, is just American citizens volunteering their lives to fight for a common ideal. Has it really changed so much? Sure, the military personnel are the people in uniform overseas (and at home, too) that people can pick out of a crowd immediately. Yeah, they need good morals, but not necessarily 'better' or 'higher' morals. Perhaps they have simply kept the same standards from ages past, and the American people have simply degraded in their morals? Could that be the rift between civilian and military? That maybe the 'common' person has lower morals than we used to?

This separation of morals, as it gets ingrained into society, just pushes the military and American populous farther apart. No one side has better or higher moral standards than the other, when it comes down to it. It's just stressed more in the military environment. It's just one more thing to push the military and populous farther apart. I walked into one of my first naval science classes last year and got this look and muted whispers of "Geez, look, it's a civilian". Two years and seven navy classes later (and three AF classes), you know what I've found? There's really no difference. Even when visiting officers drop by, or the officers teaching the classes, or the Midshipmen or Cadets, there's really no huge difference except a greater grasp of government knowledge. I'm no more or less moral than any of the other people here. I've really not seen any Midshipmen or Cadets or officers that seem to have a 'higher moral standard' than every other person I know. They drink underage just as much as other college students. They probably cheat just as much as other college students too - remember that statistic for doctors? Officers like to play pranks just as much as other adults. They have the same trouble and worries as well. They can make bad decisions. So where's the higher moral standard? Heck, where's the different moral standard?

I don't think there is a higher moral standard for military personnel, nor should there be. I believe that if someone does something wrong, they should be punished. Abu Ghraib and the rape cases - yeah, you know, that was stupid and they need to be punished. But on the same note, I don't care if they're military or not. I'd say that prison guards and rapists that aren't in the military need just as harsh a punishment. If the military is the face of the government, they need to stick to good morals, I agree. But if people in other countries are really that interested in seeing what Americans are like, they just need to go online. There are murders and rapes every day. People are letting immigrants, although illegal, to die in the back of an unheated truck and die of overheating and dehydration. Vice President Cheney shoots campaign contributors on quail hunts...

Military people are just normal people with a different profession than other people. When they're home they're just as much a citizen as I am. When they retire, they're citizens again. I think that the 'higher moral standard' has been emphasized by the media, and nothing more.

School

Alright, so I've changed my class schedule about 5 or 6 times since Sunday night. Still isn't finalized. But at the moment I'm liking it.

HEAR YE HEAR YE HEAR YE!

I am currently looking for editors for this semester. The job has wonderful pay, of $0.00 per hour, and if you do a good job, your income will double in the first three weeks!

:-)

In other words, almost all my classes are essay classes, and I'd like people to help edit to make sure they make sense and read well. There are several long essays, from 10-25 pages depending on the class. They're over the military and over history, sometimes both.

-goes on knees-

Steph, I beg you!

Okay. Nuff said. I can beg more to Steph later.

I'm trying to move into Kristin's old room. It's sooo much bigger than mine. Let's see if housing will let me.

I'm in Millett for 9 hours a week again this semester... all the officers are just laughing at me. I'm laughing at me too.

Okay, time for homework.

-one more beg, with puppy eyes-