Other Updates

Campus was filled with police today. -shiver- It was kinda weird... I'm not used to noticing them. But I saw two pairs of cops walking around, and everywhere I looked there was a police car/SUV in sight. I think just walking from Millett to Upham I came across four different police vehicles and two sets of cops. (For non-Miami peeps, that's about a 10 minute walk... down a street and across a two lane state highway. Two roads doesn't usually account for many cop cars.) It was surreal. Usually the cops don't have many visible weapons on them. Today... -shiver- They had guns today. Mace, guns, batons, whole shebang. I mean that much just doesn't really happen around sleepy Oxford. So yeah... just kinda surreal. We'll see if there's that much around tomorrow morning when I go back to Upham.


Other news. Early Saturday morning a 19 year old Miami girl was found dead on the train tracks around 3:30am, after a train had unknowingly hit her at 1:45 that morning. Didn't even know. Second train that comes through is the one that noticed her. She was drunk as hell. Blood alcohol level was .299. Seriously now. I know it's not nice to speak ill of the dead, but seriously now. That's just stupid. Kinda like having a memorial to kids who died in a house fire that THEY STARTED and were too drunk to notice, and tampered with all safty precautions. I'm sorry she's dead, but that's what you get for being irresponsible. Those trains blow their whistles quite loud - I can hear them with my windows closed, fan on, over a mile away. It's horrible she's dead - she sounds like she was a really cool girl. But add this to my mile-long list of reasons why more than one drink is a really really bad idea. And that even one is questionable if you're not home with people you're safe with. I know I don't trust many people here to help me if I were drunk - school's not a good place for that stuff. I think Mike and Jordan are the only two people I trust to you know, get me home in one piece if I were ever stupid enough to get drunk. (Ha, right. I still have a bottle of mead in my fridge I need to finish. I've had it all semester. Hrm.)

I'm thinking I can get Jordan to do some more RPing with me and finish a story we started. I started reading old ones of mine and Nic's - damn they were good. I'm sure they still could be, but she'd have to respond to me first... >.< And that looks like that'll never happen again... -groans and holds head- We still have one that was just getting good and started... I wish she wasn't so mad at me, and just civilly talk things out. Somewhere ... we got wires crossed. But it's kinda hard to uncross them from one side. Nicky, if you DO ever read this, please, just talk to me one day. Please. I'm begging you. I can't ever get ahold of you, so please. One day. Please just talk to me. I want to work things out. I miss talking to you and telling you some really cool things that I know would make you laugh, or things that only you'd get cuz you just know me that well. Please Nicky.


Other, hopefully happier news. Friday night I'm going to Colonel Stohry's house for dinner with a few other people. Smart casual - my new black pants sure have come in handy! I'm really excited. Col. Stohry's so cool. And the guys that'll be there are too. So I'll pack before I go there, then drive home afterwards. The Smiths are coming in for the weekend, so who knows if they'll get home before or after me. I haven't seen them in a year or so, at least. I'm always gone when they're here, and I don't go to Indy much anymore, so don't see them there. I'm reffing Saturday at Kings @ 10am. Quite excited. Okay not really, but it's money. I also have a paper due Friday, as well as the chore of getting all my decorations down.... yeeeah you know how much time that is for me? Took forever getting those blasted things ON the walls....

Okay, I need sleep. Good night, sweet dreams, peace out.

Ahhh Spring!

So excited. Only one more paper to go, then a take home final, a final before finals, and one final during finals week. ^_^ I have AF classes next semester, so I can continue to hanging out with some of the coolest people I know.

Today NROTC had their summer whites on. *purr* Oh, I DO love a man in uniform! I like the black dress uniforms better, however.

Funny story. There were presentations today in class. THey're supposed to wear white shorts so you can't you know, see their underwear under the white summer-weight pants. So one of the three presenters, today, had on red and white striped boxers under their uniform. >.< It was kinda hard to take his presentation seriously - the guys around me and I couldn't help but snicker the entire time. Seriously, red and white stripes? -shakes head- It was awesome. Then one of the girls' cell phones kept going off, making it even more amusing. She was sitting right next to the XO (Commander Rein). Hilarious. One of the presenters just stopped, and very father-like, "Would you like me to stop my presentation so you may answer your phone?" She turned soooo red. It's been a great day so far.

VT. I'm glad I didn't decide to go there... -shudder- Last year, snipers. This year, 33 dead. Glad I listened to my gut instinct NOT TO GO TO VT. So scary...

http://www.cnn.com/2007/US/04/17/vtech.shooting/index.html for the latest updates. IE, for people like Steph who may not have gotten the memo. ;)

So...

My last post was less than informative, I know.

I've been incredibly depressed lately. I'd say I don't know why, but I do. I'm stressed and I'm depressed. What a mix, eh? And before you can ask if you can help, no, you can't. So don't ask. And I don't really want to talk about it. I need to talk with mom and dad I think, but no one else can really do much, nor am I too willing to discuss much of it. Steph can probably drag some information out of me, if she's lucky, but she's probably the only one around anymore who can do that and get it. No offense to everyone else, just she was an awesome roomie and still an awesome friend and she's just that good. But if I've seemed a little out of it, it's not you. I'm just really fighting a lot of inner depression right now and considering seeing a counselor. Again. Didn't we go through this last year? Just different reasons.

Other news. I'm still really sad and hurt that Nic doesn't respond to me. (I think I can vent here, since everyone who reads this (like, all four of you) has heard my whining about her not responding, and I don't think she reads this anymore anyways. She's blocked me everywhere else it seems... or ignores me... one or the other...) Sent yet another email to her asking for SOME response. So, first letter, no response for almost two months. A couple IMs don't seem to go through. Second letter, no response. Phone, off or I'm blocked. Not sure which. But why leave a message if she doesn't even respond to emails? Probably not helping my depression at all, because I miss talking to her, laughing with her, roleplaying with her, griping about tests with her. Hell, she was my friend. I'd like to think she still is, but she's made it quite clear that, even if I'd like to think that, I'm *definitely* not in her life anymore. She's made sure of that. So I'm not sure which hurts more, her apparently not wanting to be friends anymore, after years of being so, or her completely ignoring me and blocking me from everything. I really don't think this is helping my depression either. At all. There went the only other person besides Steph who actually *understood* and didn't just listen. I just wish she'd get over her pride and tell me SOMETHING, even if it's just 'you suck'. I don't know why, when she always wanted to talk things out, why she won't talk this out. I just don't get it. I know most of you said its not worth your time stressing over, but I do. I always have.


Happier news. Think I got to get a picture of the raccoon this evening. Spent about two hours in the nature preserve tonight. Very good for the soul. Watched the ROTC marines do... whatever ROTC marines do. Not too sure. But they were doing it well. Tonight's animal tally: 1 raccoon, 4 deer, 12 vultures, 1 woodpecker, and 8 idiotic students going down the creek in rafts. This is probably a huge reason as to why the beavers didn't come out tonight.

Next weeks items: Monday - Paper due, project/presentation over Perelieu due. Tuesday - Project/presentation over Kent State Massacre due. Wednesday - .... nothing yet..... Thursday - Project/presentation over War of Mexican Independence due. Friday - .... home? Not sure yet. But it's Friday. Nuff said.


Alright, well I'm going to clean my room, maybe that will cut down some of the stress and depression. Put in a movie as I work. Lots and lots to do, and no energy to do it! IM me or call me to talk, I'll be around. Sooner or later. :)

School

Alright, so I've changed my class schedule about 5 or 6 times since Sunday night. Still isn't finalized. But at the moment I'm liking it.

HEAR YE HEAR YE HEAR YE!

I am currently looking for editors for this semester. The job has wonderful pay, of $0.00 per hour, and if you do a good job, your income will double in the first three weeks!

:-)

In other words, almost all my classes are essay classes, and I'd like people to help edit to make sure they make sense and read well. There are several long essays, from 10-25 pages depending on the class. They're over the military and over history, sometimes both.

-goes on knees-

Steph, I beg you!

Okay. Nuff said. I can beg more to Steph later.

I'm trying to move into Kristin's old room. It's sooo much bigger than mine. Let's see if housing will let me.

I'm in Millett for 9 hours a week again this semester... all the officers are just laughing at me. I'm laughing at me too.

Okay, time for homework.

-one more beg, with puppy eyes-